Chapter 4

    January 10th, 2010: Every night since my last entry, that same dream has replayed itself over three times. I kept telling Miles no and he kept telling me that I would regret it. This night, I wasn’t going to let him torture me again with no sleep. At least, it felt like no sleep. This time, I was going to let him sleep…next to me. I haven’t even told Adam about all these dreams that I’ve been having of him. It’d be super awkward anyways and he probably wouldn’t care.

    Before I went to sleep, I had a nice chat with Zachary instead of Adam, Justin and Chago. It was a nice change. Spending my late nights talking to Zachary is probably a highlight of my day because we actually have a conversation that can go on for hours. We ended our Skype call at around 3:30am.

    Afterwards, I prepared myself for my next dream. I knew what I was going to say and what I was going to do, sleep mainly even if it’s next to Adam. This is my goal. Twenty minutes after going to bed, I went into sleeping mode.

    That’s when it started. Two knocks on the door. I got up, thinking that I was still awake. When I opened the door there was a strange Asian guy at the door.

        “Sup, fat ass bitch,” he had Zachary’s voice.
        “Zachary…” I whispered.
        “Nope, Hunter,” he said.

    Surprisingly, he didn’t look too different. He looked more mixed than fully Asian.

        “Miles told me that you haven’t been wanting to spend time with him for the past four days. Did he do something?” he asked.
        “Not really. I just didn’t know we were together,” I said.
        “…You guys aren’t. He’s dating Annie,” he said.
        “…Are you sure?” my eyes flew wide open in confusion.
        “Yeah, I’m pretty sure. I mean they make out in front of almost everyone.”
        “What do you mean almost everyone?” I asked.
        “Well, he doesn’t do it in front of you, Nelson, Olly and me,” he replied.
        “Why?”
        “Cause he respects us! Well, not you, but your always with us.”

    Talk about bizarre. I felt like I was in a soap opera or freakin’ degrassi. Hunter and I heard a knock ten minutes after he was explaining how long Annie and Miles have been together. It was Miles.

        “Hey…Hi Hunter,” he barely looked at Hunter, “What are you doing here?”
        “Just leaving, bro,” Hunter said.
        “Alright,” Miles watched Hunter leave.

    I shoved Miles out the door though because I didn’t want to hear his lies. This dream just made me feel bad because all the times that Adam said I was a homewrecker, he turned me into one! In my own fucking dream! Miles kept knocking, all night. Kept telling me that I was going to regret it, but finally when he stopped, I closed my eyes and fell asleep. Woke up 15 minutes later, best sleep I’ve had in days.